Rejected

Contrary to might you might believe, the title is not about girl rejection, its about rejection in general, more specifically my rejection. I'm feeling a little left out ever since last Wednesday. She barely talks to me much anymore. Shes not mad at me (that I know of) and we're fine as far as I know... she just hasn't replied t most of my messages, and when she does talk its nothing too important. She doesn't text or call just to talk anymore. I understand if she's busy, but me being me, my stupid mind won't let it go at that. It has to think she's ignoring me, or something like that. I just hope to God that Cass can get home on Thursday, because I need time with friends. All I've had recently is Nick, and he's gone during weekdays until four. So where does that leave me for seven hours while I wait? Here... at home... doing nothing... talking to no one... because the only people I talk to are either in school... or just not talking. I'm just feeling like I'm not wanted around or desired. Not that I feel outcast, just not really wanted. Like a neutral thing. Not hated but not wanted either. To be honest I'd rather be hated than neither loved or hated, because then at least I can focus my life around making the people that hate me lives miserable. But being not hated nor wanted, I cant despise the ones that hate me, and I can't be with the ones that want to be with me, because neither of them exist. Like limbo... that religious expanse of nothing... yeah I'd rather go to hell then that. Because at least it's interesting. Another example... people who love being thought of horribly, because at least their being thought of (stolen from "Easy A"). So yeah...

This is a blog about any and every major thought that crosses my mind... and that was one of them so yeah...

~Induo