Bout damn time...

I'm some dog to be lead around on a leash. I'm tired of chasing after her. She gives me one night, so far the best of my life, then not 24 hours later is avoiding me like the plague. If all that was just a welcome home thing then she shouldn't have bothered. I told myself and Her that it wasn't going to happen again, because I'm tired of worshiping the ground she walks on and getting nothing in return.

My only worry is that it turns out she really does like me, and it wasn't me she was mad at. Because honestly, I would LOVE for Sunday night to happen again, and now it never will... again. This is an EXTREMELY hard decision between The girl of my dreams, and my best friend. The problem is... if I pursue the girl of my dreams, I MIGHT not get her... if I choose my best friend, I may not be as happy. Don't get me wrong I'll be happy but there will always be the "what if" in the back of my head.

A couple of days ago I wouldn't be worried. The "what if" wouldn't be there because I know that there would never be a "what if"... but now there could be. Right now it's not looking hot for me and dream girl. She doesn't seem even a fraction as interested as she was Sunday, and best friend has always liked me since BEFORE I came home from the Navy, unlike dream girl. I'm just so confused right now, and before I was worried that I'd thrown away my best friendship for a girl I won't even get with... and now that I've fixed things with her... I'm worried that I chose a potentially doomed friendship over possible total and complete happiness with the one I've wanted since middle school.

And don't even get me started on the fact that this is all going on in my three weeks of leave...meaning I have even less time to fix thing every time something new unfolds. What I would like to do is have them both competing for me until I can make a decision, but that's not fair to either of them. I don't know anymore... maybe I'm just sleep deprived... goodnight.

~Inddy

Best night of my life ever

Okay I haven't really talked about her too much because I never thought things would progress beyond friends, but I've had a huge crush on this girl at church for 7 years now. We've always been good friends, but she never showed any real interest in me... until now. We were just talking and stuff at church last night, and I asked her what she was doing. Obviously she said nothing so I invited her to the beach. Long story short we walk down the Rockport beach and down to the end of the dock. We're talking about this and that and then I mention something about her smiling. And i told her I was going to get her to smile so I start tickling her. Then all of a sudden, she gets really close.... and kisses me, A LOT.


Okay you have NO IDEA how much this made my LIFE. She's been near or at the top of my aspirations list for years now and she KISSED me. After we sat there a while.... I was speechless of course. After a while we started talking again and found our selves sitting the laying on the pier just talking. But last night was THE best night of my entire life. I just cant get over how AWESOME last night was.

Shes coming over to play video games after she gets off work. Yeah tha'ts right guys be jealous she plays video games. Spyro fanatic she is. So yeah I'm on top of the biggest world IN the world. Just thought I'd rub it in a little.

~Inddy

Sneaky lil tard I is.

Okay, so I know when I'm coming home, but I've only told one person. Hopefully they can pick me up when i fly in so I can surprise everyone, but I still need my itinerary so I can see if our schedules match. I can't wait. I'm already done with ALL my class work until graduation, I just need to get packed graduated and checked out. Look out people. I'm coming to surprise you, you just don't know when =P

~Inddy

Early day

Title says it all. Got out early today (shhhhhhh... don't tell). But yeah doing our last mods tomorrow then I will be done with ILE but of course we still won't graduate for another week.Called the command at Kunia, I'm officially going. Just need to wait until an official leave date to buy my plane ticket home. Man I'm so stoked you wouldn't even believe.

In other news... there isn't any. Have an awesome day

but remember...

~Inddy

Saturday's acomin

I'm not too good at this blogging thing. I look at other people's blogs and their pages look nicer, their posts have more color and pictures. It's not like I don't want to add pictures its just that most of the stuff I write about really has a picture that can describe it. Maybe I'll get Sarah to design my page for me hehe.

Well found out it's going to be hard to get leave. Their messing up my orders and we don't have an actual leave date yet. Without a leave date, we can't buy our plane tickets. Without plane tickets, we can't go home. They say we'll be okay, but I'm still skeptical.

I still can't wait to go home. I miss everyone so much. especially Her and Nick.

I'm not sure if I'm going to make a career out of the Navy. Just about everyone in here is an ass. They constantly dog on me. Then when I get mad it fuels the fire, and if I try to go to anyone about it, they either say they were joking (which somehow justifies it) or they tell me to quit begin a pussy. I tolerate a lot of crap from them but a guy can only do so much.

Anyway, back to thing less depressing. I could only imagine if they got a hold of this blog. Pretty much only the people back home could understand this thing without being judgmental.\

I miss the youth like crazy. I hope I can go home Friday or Saturday next week that way I can surprise everyone at church Sunday morning. I won't even tell anyone I'm coming. It's not like I have to worry about them finding out by reading this. No one ever does. I've gotten 9 page views this week... all from me.

Any-who, going to change and grab a bite to eat. Holla

~Inddy

Life so far

So yeah lately I've been having fun as much as I can. Doing the thing I never could in my small town, with friends that I never would have met in my small town.


I went bungee jumping...

I enjoy evenings on the beach with my friends...

But of course along with the fun, you have to have a little disappointment. I have no idea when I'll be going home. The estimated date of graduation is the 23rd, but I have be in holding up to a month after that. So I can leave as early as the day of the 23rd or a whole lot later than that.


But all is not bad, no matter how long it takes I still get three weeks with my friends and family.


Still got my eye on that girl and it's looking better and better as time rolls. However I'm not gonna push anything. It's hard to TRY to have a relationship in the Navy, if it happens it happens, but you can't really plan one like civilians.


But yeah I wish more people would follow this, at least more of my friends.... if you're already following this, spread the word a little. Get it out there let people see what it's like through the life of your average sailor.


~Inddy

Holy Cow

Wow. It has been a REEEEAllly long time since i posted last. The funny thing is, all that drama I last wrote about doesn't even matter anymore.

Well I've left for the Navy. I went through boot camp, and I'm almost done with "A" school. Right now I'm in Pensacola, Florida. I'll be going home in a couple of weeks for 21 days then my first duty station is in Hawaii. Can you believe that? Hawaii.

To recap on my last post, I'm STILL not with Amber. In fact I got rid of her for good. I told her off and hopefully I won't have to deal with her stupid drama anymore. When she gets into the real world she'll realize why I did it. Life is already hard enough without childish drama to deal with too. I'm single but I've got a special someone I've got my eye on. We've been talking a lot lately and I think it might work. She obviously knows I'm in the Navy and is willing to at least try to deal with that. And I understand if it doesn't work. That's one of the perks of the Navy.

Now I don't give a dang about being left out by Herand Amber hehe. (Still recapping the last post)

Other than that there's not a lot going on. Pretty much I'm just waiting and preparing to go home then to Hawaii. So yeah if I can remember Ill be making regular posts again. So if any of the five people following me are still keeping track, keeps your eyes out.

~Inddy