So I just saw a video of my cousin's wedding. I wasn't there because of the military. But Krissy was. The girl that only knew them, the rest of my family, because if me. The girl that by the time the video was recorded had already stopped talking to me.
I know I write about her a lot and its getting old. Even I'm sick of hearing myself talk about her. I don't love her. Not anymore but to sit there and watch a woman who I used to love be apart of a very important part of my family's life all while I couldn't makes me so mad. The audacity. It's so fucked that she's such good friends with the rest of my family knowing full well that she's all but pushed me out of her life and my family knows it all. They know that she doesn't talk to me. They know how I felt and still they basically replaced me. It makes me want to just say fuck them all and live the rest of my life without a family. Doesn't feel like I really have one now anyway. It wouldn't really be any different.
-Inddy
