Over and over.

You know I could post on here that I was going to kill myself in a week's time and no one would know until day of. Yes this is going to be a whiny little emo post. I think I deserve one. Litterally no one wants to be around me. I'm just realising that I'm a legitimate asshole, and I can't even help. With the navy I'm given tons of new chances with friends, and I fuck every single one of them up. I've been in honorguard for just under a week and already I'm known as the asshole of the group. I can't stand being that way but I can't help it most of the time. It just happens. I wanna know if that's what's driving girls away. If not then what it? I wanna know what's wrong with me. I don't know. There's nothing else to say. Talk to you guys later.. maybe.

~Inddy

Honor, honor, nothing but honor

So as of yesterday, I joined the Honorguard. A bunch of the old stuff from NJROTC came back but I had to change it up a little. People were pretty cool right off the bat. I feel at home. I'm doing something I love and they're patient with me when I mess up. I like it here. It's gonna suck when I have to go back.

So this is my first post from my phone. I'm actually posting this from the van going to Mililani for a burial. I like this whole portable blog thing. So when I get inspired,  I can post on he spot. Anyway that's all for now. Post later.

~Inddy